Difference

The closeness in the past
Is no longer there
Why did it disappear overnight

What used to be
Is no longer the same
Why

What does this mean
Was the past a figment of one's imagination
It seems so surreal

Question after question
Attack the already puzzled mind
Drowning in questions

Someone who was once close
Appears to be like a stranger
What lies beneath

What is different about me that led to this
What am I doing differently now
What is the difference

It is still very confusing
Sometimes okay, sometimes not
At various times, the same thing is seen differently

Emotions are still evoked
Having suppressed them for very long
Perhaps deluding oneself that things are okay

The old feelings occasionally surface
The past seems to return frequently
Moments of happiness during those days triggered often

When reality bites
How painful it is
The torment felt

The closeness is long gone
A stranger stands in front of me
Who is this person

It hurts ... It still does