Emotions

What is the difference between controlling one's emotions and numbing them? Is there a difference? Wouldn't control lead to numbness eventually?

I am still shocked at my reaction yesterday. I acted out of rage. Of late, the emotions have been stirring up like crazy. I don't know if it's because of the usual reasons or if it's hormonal or if it's another underlying reason.

I don't know if I am numbing everything right now.

I am still in a state of shock. Sometimes I wonder if I am who I really am.