When I'd called her that night to let her know, my feelings were stirred again. When I'd asked her how she was and if she was ok, I realised that it's how I'd spoken to you as well. When another colleague came back that day and I saw how she'd immediately gone to her, I was really upset. Sometimes I wonder if I am ever effective. I was once close to her.
What had happened?
Had I changed that much?
Was I blind to her thoughts and feelings?
I wish I could get away from it all. I wish I could just cry and get over it. It is painful to feel this way. I have numb my feelings for too long already. I don't know why numbing my feelings was the answer at that time. They are coming up now. I need to avoid her which should not be too difficult.
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