When she asked "Shak, do you want to drive into JB?" My heart stopped for a moment. I was brought back to the past when I'd gone into JB with you. I don't know why I think that I could have with her what I had with you. I know that it will never ever happen. The feelings are still there. Sigh.
With her in closer proximity than you, I need to be more careful so as not to get emotions in the way. A close friend once commented that I was emotionally free. I thought I was.
However I think that there are still some slight feelings there, maybe 1% or something.
When I'd called you yesterday, it was really nice talking to you again, even though it was for non-personal reasons. Sometimes I do wonder if you ever had to get over me, at least the slightest bit. Maybe not at all.
I still miss you. I miss her too.
Sigh ... Am so screwed up ...
