Beginning of a New Chapter

Has the new chapter truly begun
Everything seems to be different
In a positive light

The old feelings are gone
Why the sudden change overnight
Too true to believe

Does this mean that the past was not true
Those feelings in the past were unreal
But the existence was so dominant

Have I gone back to my old self
Have I lost all feelings
Or have I now embarked on a new journey

For the past is the past and will remain as such
Why did I suddenly wake up
There is still this unsettled feeling within

Being able to move on quickly now
Failure seen as lessons to success
Life is too short

So many things to do, so little time
Plenty of time has been wasted already
Move, dash, run

There's still that little bit that lingers
Does letting go mean it never existed, ever
For it would be too painful to deny a great past

Many questions asked
Few answers forth coming
Accept it for what it is now and enjoy the moment

Make a different choice the next time
Acknowledge the consequence
Move on and move forward

For life truly is a journey
For each and everyone of us to make the best out of
It is up to me how I want it to be

Time starts now ...

Good old days

The good old days
There is a reason why it is termed as such
The past had been great

The good old days
So many wonderful and beautiful memories
And that is all they will ever be

The good old days
Time to let go and move on
Reminiscing at best

The good old days
How I miss them so
Only appreciated it after I had lost it

Time to treasure each and every moment now
For the future will be better
And it is up to me to make it a reality

Oh how difficult it seems right now

New Day

A new day has come
Grab the opportunities that come along
It has been a great day

Grinning from ear to ear
A smile shining ever so brightly
It's offensively glaring

How beautiful it was
What a lovely moment
It was great

The heart skipped many beats
Excitement took over
Elation

Be grateful
This is good enough
Desiring for more is the formula for disaster

The harder the climb, the harder the fall
Be careful
Do not set up for another disappointment

Enjoy this moment for what it is

Heart no longer feels

The heart no longer feels
What it used to be is the past
Moving forward, the heart has turned to stone
For the pain is too unbearable

There were glimpses of happiness
Periods of sadness and pain dominate though
Last night was the last straw
The last tear drop ever

Enough is enough
No longer wondering
Focusing out
Easier said than done

Go through the pain
Just experience the emotions
Handle it for it will get better

Months have passed
The story remains unchanged
Sounding like a broken record

Time for a new song
Being a wooden block
Is the answer

OVER IT

Over It by Katharine McPhee

I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it

I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm so over it....
I'm over it....

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Over it

Over it
Yes or no
The heart does not know what it is feeling

Moments of pain creep in
Moments of yearning still exist
Why did the past not carry on to the present

What a contrast it has been
Comfort vs awkwardness
Companionship vs loneliness

Oh how times have changed
Desire so strong for things to go back to being normal
What will it take

The past had many wonderful memories
Which makes the present painful at times
If only time could be turned back

For the kindness, devotion and dedication
That have been put in place
There is no balance

It has gotten more tolerable
But still not completely over it
When will it truly end

The answer lies within

Don't understand

IF YOU ASKED ME TO by Celine Dion

Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in

But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to

Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free

(But if you asked me to)

Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby

If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to

Hmmm ...

Your silhouette, as you stand among others
The strength and serenity that embodies your frame
And your roots anchor you strongly

Standing tall with so much comfort that you provide
Always there without fail
Your presence silently screams out

Your beauty is empowering
With the magnificent sounds in the background
Oh, how magical

Thank you for allowing me to be part
Of your wonderful beauty
Never shall I take you for granted, anymore

What a perfect gift

Restlessness

Unable to focus
What do I want
Confused

is it confusion
Or fear of taking action
For fear of the consequences

Stop wondering what if
Just do it and handle what ever comes along with it
It's better than wondering ... What if

How long will it continue to be this way
This uncertainty has been here for a long while
The small steps are not helping

Be assertive
Be decisive
Make the stand for myself

What do I want

What do I want in life
What is my purpose in life
I ponder over this as
I sit in my programming class

I am so bored
I dont understand what the lecturer is saying
Many things awaiting for me to accomplish
Where do I begin

To feel complete on my own
My greatest flaw was pointed out to me
I didnt know it was so hard for me
To acknowledge myself for who I am

What do I want
What do I want
What do I want
I have yet to figure it out

Am I happy where I currently am
Where do I move towards
Someone shared with me his vision and passion
I was so moved

I know what I want
Do I dare move towards it
It seems so hard to move
The heavy feet

Keep moving
So many things to do and learn
Plentiful opportunities have dropped onto my lap
Grab all of them and accomplish my dream

The wound has healed
It was so silly
The drama was unnecessary
Hopefully it is not too late

Blessings

Count my blessings
I was told
I have so much to be grateful for

Never take things for granted
I was reminded
Before they are taken away from you

Love from family and friends
Encouragement and support
Overlooked at times

I could not see at that time
The treasures I had all this while
Till recently

How fortunate I have been
To be surrounded with so much love and care
From the people dearest to my heart