Wonder

Sometimes I wonder why I do so much. It really is not worth it. When am I going to learn? When I am going to put it into actions? Questions had been asked and they revealed a lot. It is to the extent where I am not even going to bother or care anymore. Whatever happens happens. I feel like screaming my lungs out. I think I am on the verge of tears again. I am just so frustrated and so tired. I have had enough and I want a break.

Reminders

Time and again, I am reminded that things happen for a reason. Today was no exception. Perhaps it's just me. Anyway I am glad that events have shaped up in a particular manner. I cannot imagine having to go through such episodes more frequently. I can hardly wait to start a new chapter.

Doubt

I hated the fact that I was doubted. I have already explained what had happened. What happened to taking things at face value? I had then explained and groveled further. I hate myself for doing that. I should have just ignored it and see what would have happened. Perhaps it will be worse off. Was is worth it to have done what I did?

I am just so irritated and angry right now. What right do you have to have posed that question? That just shows the level of trust that you have in me and in our friendship. How dare you! I have done so many things, do they not offset the mistake? I have already explained, yet you still wondered. You know what, why not just change it? Do not get me to do such things.

I am sick and tired of this.

I am glad for how the events have turned out. Once again, I believe that things have turned out for the better and things do happen for a reason. I cannot imagine having to do this and to take care of this aspect often. Thank goodness it is once in awhile as events have shaped to this manner. I am glad I am getting what I am getting. To top it off, I am getting the best. Thank goodness for that.