You are so far away

You are so far away metaphorically.

I can't believe that I am still so upset with what has happened over the last weekend. I really need to get it out of the system. A part of me wished I didn't see what I had to see. I know I vaguely saw and it was minimal on Saturday. It was however enough to trigger a HUGE reaction from me.

What I heard on Monday was even more devastating. I was shattered when I heard that. It was enough to push me over the edge to declare you completely out of my life.

I am so tired of this cycle of being angry, and then being upset and then finding the peace. I need the harmony within me. I cannot afford to run into you again.