"When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain, we fall into depression, despair until finally we have to accept we have done everything we can, we let go. We let go and move into acceptance." Quote from Grey's Anatomy.
How apt is this for me right now. I am trying very hard to maintain the anger. For what? Is there any purpose? Everything that I have done does not seem to work and I have done everything that I can.
Have I fallen into depression? Yes, I have as I am dead inside.
Am I in despair? Yes, I am and I have gone beyond that as I am dead inside.
I need to accept that I have done everything I can. Once I have accepted that, then only will I be able to let go. I will then let go and then move into acceptance. Only then will I move forward.
I need a break from all this as work is causing me pain. I need to break away from the source of pain, as just what I'd done with you. This is the only way for me to recover. I need to find myself. It is somewhere there but it is buried very deeply in.
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