Wonder

Sometimes I wonder why I do so much. It really is not worth it. When am I going to learn? When I am going to put it into actions? Questions had been asked and they revealed a lot. It is to the extent where I am not even going to bother or care anymore. Whatever happens happens. I feel like screaming my lungs out. I think I am on the verge of tears again. I am just so frustrated and so tired. I have had enough and I want a break.

Reminders

Time and again, I am reminded that things happen for a reason. Today was no exception. Perhaps it's just me. Anyway I am glad that events have shaped up in a particular manner. I cannot imagine having to go through such episodes more frequently. I can hardly wait to start a new chapter.

Doubt

I hated the fact that I was doubted. I have already explained what had happened. What happened to taking things at face value? I had then explained and groveled further. I hate myself for doing that. I should have just ignored it and see what would have happened. Perhaps it will be worse off. Was is worth it to have done what I did?

I am just so irritated and angry right now. What right do you have to have posed that question? That just shows the level of trust that you have in me and in our friendship. How dare you! I have done so many things, do they not offset the mistake? I have already explained, yet you still wondered. You know what, why not just change it? Do not get me to do such things.

I am sick and tired of this.

I am glad for how the events have turned out. Once again, I believe that things have turned out for the better and things do happen for a reason. I cannot imagine having to do this and to take care of this aspect often. Thank goodness it is once in awhile as events have shaped to this manner. I am glad I am getting what I am getting. To top it off, I am getting the best. Thank goodness for that.

Dragonboating - An Exhilarating Experience

Went dragonboating yesterday. What a thrilling experience! :) I had so much fun and was grinning from ear to ear. Even though I am now aching, I have no regrets at all. It was truly great fun! To be able to see the skyline from that view .. To be able to see the Singapore Flyer from that angle ... Wow!! Happiness. It felt like I was overseas. All these treasures within reach. I am contented and happy. A great family, wonderful friends and coupled with an exciting experience. Happiness!

I am grateful and happy! Each day is a joyous moment filled with many wonderful things. Happiness oozing out of every pore within me. It has been awhile since I felt this way. What goes down must come up. I am glad that I am on the way up.

Things do happen for a reason

Someone had shared about some events. This sharing had emphasized to me once again that things do happen for a reason. Prior to this, I had always asked why did events not turn out to the way I wanted. I kept asking why. I am now glad and firmly believe once again that things do happen for a reason, and a good reason at that. I am glad and thankful for the way events have turned out. I just need to have patience to allow the events to unfold. Had I wanted it to happen in my way, which I thought was better, I am sure there would have been many more issues and I will actually be worse off.

I am truly thankful that things have turned out this way.

Reflections

I know that it is perhaps strange to reflect on the year of 2007 now. When I look back on the year that has passed, I am amazed about the events that have shaped the year of 2007. The year has truly been great! With so many achievements and so many things I never thought possible actually came true.

I am thankful for the many wonderful things that have happened. I am grateful for the support rendered by friends in helping me see through the darkest period of my life. I appreciate the company of my friends when we meet up and hang out. I have taken so many things for granted. I have come to realize that there are so many things that I am grateful for. For the tough and challenging happenings, I have come out a stronger person. I feel more at peace with myself now. I feel that I have learnt to let go things that are not so important. I have learnt to appreciate the things that I have in life. To wake up each day is something I am thankful for, to make today even better than yesterday.

I am glad that things are looking up and are improving. I hope and pray that 2008 will be a better year.

Emotions

It is amazing how emotions can cloud one's judgement. Having a few days' break in between to think things through and to just focus on other things, to focus on happy things and to focus on things one should be grateful for. Thank goodness for the restraint. Even though the seconds seemed like eternity, time fortunately does move on. I hope the air will clear soon. I hope and I pray.