Reconciliation

I need to reconcile the fact that I will get better but I may not be happier. I still remember the past filled with many wonderful memories. Yes there were low periods but the highs more than made up for it, I feel. I still feel that emptiness and that something is missing. A part of me wants to give you a call to just talk to you. A part of me tells me to let go and that it is not worth it. I still miss having you around. Seeing the project write-up and the forms at this stage is not helping matters. Seeing the project write-up brings me back to my happiest days which I know I will no longer have. I miss you. I miss you bringing Ruski for me. I miss you getting nice goodies from JB from me. I miss you.