I miss you

I miss you
I still shed a tear once in a while
Even though it's different now
You're still here somehow

I need to let you go, not that I have ever had you in the first place. I need to let go of the past. Time has moved on, so many things have changed, yet I am still stuck in the past. I feel like going away for awhile, to just be alone. To be away from everything.

I wonder if you had done advance with your friend. I have this feeling you did. A part of me is angry when I think of that. A part of me tells me that I should have expected this. You will do what you want.

I want to do what I want. However what I want is in contradiction with what I should do.