Cold

I still find that sms to be rather cold. I don't know. Maybe no sms will be right from you. I really hate you right now. I feel really stupid. I feel like emailing you a letter that I am walking out from this friendship. It hurts. It truly hurts. I know that it will hurt as it heals. What an irony. It is so so painful that my friendship with you ends. Just as how it will hit me that I have loved you, the same pain will hit me when I internalize that I am ending my friendship with you. There have been times when I feel like "This kinda friend, give me also I don't want". Maybe when I am feeling pain, I am not seeing you as a friend but as someone whom I yearn.