Will you be there tomorrow?

I wonder if you will be there tomorrow. A part of me knows the answer. A part of me hopes that you will be there. Another part of me cannot be bothered. I just hope that this last part of me is getting bigger and bigger. Life so far has been good and peaceful. I have been happy. It could be tiredness that's drowning out the sorrow. It could be numbness that's overcoming the sadness. It could be true happiness that I am letting go more now. I no longer feel the lows and it has been awhile. Having the low period has been tough for me. It has been so long that I have forgotten what it feels like to be happy without you in it. I do not need you to be happy. I have all the important things that matter.